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Thursday, 17 February 2011

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Devorah Zealot Soodak

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Meredith

I'm very sorry about the diagnosis. It would be depressing news under any circumstances but given your living situation, it must be overwhelming. My housemate was diagnosed with COPD, although not of the emphysema variety, and I've seen what's happened to him. He's been going to the hospital when it gets really bad, which is costing him a fortune that he doesn't have, but they won't let him have an oxygen tank yet.

I'm allergic to smoke, so I can imagine just a little how horrible it must be for you there. Surely there must be people looking for housemates in Philadelphia? Given your financial circumstances, that would seem to make the most sense, and plenty of people who are renting out a room don't check on prior rental history. I hate to think about you suffering in grime and gloom like this.

Devorah Zealot Soodak

Meredith,

Thanks for your concern. It was a tough blow. I'm only starting to come to terms with it.

If I can get out of this smoky, dusty, dump, I'll probably be OK. I go out for awhile and I start to be able to breathe again. I come back, and I'm all stuffed up and I feel like I have bricks on my chest again. Even the open window doesn't help much.

I've been on Craigslist. Unfortunately, the housemate situations are almost all for young people. Very few for people our age. I've answered ads, but gotten no reply. I actually found something, but I don't have picture ID. I can't sign a lease without it.

I've been waiting for a bank statement to come in the mail so I can have proof of residence. It was supposed to come Tuesday or Wednesday. It didn't come today either, so tomorrow I call the bank and raise bloody hell. I can't get ID without it and I can't get a place to live without ID.

I am tired of everything being a fight. I'm just plain tired. I can't sleep because I can't breathe and not breathing is exhausting. My credit is a mess that I have to clean up; there's all sorts of stuff on my credit report that's not supposed to be there.

Ditto for the real estate check report they run. I don't know how much information the companies share, but there are several of them and at least one of them has incorrect information. I didn't get an apartment in New York because of that. Someone very kind left me a comment on the blog pointing me in the direction of one of these companies so at least I have a place to start to clean that up.

There are even apartments cheap enough for me to afford them alone. They are not in the "nice" neighborhoods, but I'm not picky. As long as it's a decent block I'm OK. I've lived in Harlem and Bed-Stuy and I never had a problem.

I have to see if I can go around to some of the neighborhoods and look in the stores for local shopper magazines. They usually have apartment listings and some supermarkets have bulletin boards where people post things.

I need to call the man who had the room for rent because he knows a lot of people who don't do heavy duty background checks and they might have apartments. It's just so hard to do all this when I'm sick. It's really a vicious cycle.

I just have to pray that I don't get too sick here to look for a place to live. I don't know how much longer I can hold out. I don't have a refrigerator or a microwave and I can't eat out. I haven't had a hot meal since I left the hospital.

I don't feel sorry for myself. It's very hard to be in this filthy, disgusting place, and not being able to breathe is literally killing me. I just have to try not to think about it and do what I have to do to get out of here. I needed some time just to deal with my feelings about the diagosis, but I'm dealing better with that now, so I think I'll be able to move on to other things.

I have to. If I stay here, I'll end up in the hospital. That would be really bad because New York State bilked all of my lifetime reserve days so I have no more inpatient hospitalization except for procedures. That's why I have to file charges. I have to get my days back. Oh well.

Baruch Hashem. Hoshia na.

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Devorah Zealot Soodak

Meredith,

Thanks. I've gotten pretty good at vetting sites. Some of them I don't like putting bare links to in the blog because they grab my search rankings. I may have to edit the comment if they do.

Some of these are mashup sites and are little more than excuses to sell advertising. I'm guessing the one in Philadelphia is affiliated with Temple University. The pulmonologist I'm seeing on Monday is affiliated with Jefferson University.

I've already been on the Fed's web site and Wikipedia and a few other of the first page result set. I gave Wikipedia a look because that's where I got the pictures for the blog. Some of their stuff is very good and some of it isn't so you have to be careful.

The "alternative" sites have to be vetted very carefully. I've found some amazingly good ones, but some of them are downright dangerous. There's some really crazy stuff out there. Unfortunately, the best ones I've found have been changed and they're not very good anymore. I wonder what happened to them and why.

After those pictures of diseased lung tissue, I'm giving it a rest for now. I'll wait and see what the pulmonologist has to say. I really appreciate your help and concern and I really appreciate the links. When I'm up to researching again, I will take a look. Right now I need to distract myself.

Of course, I say that now. By tomorrow, my curiosity may get the better of me and I'll be clicking away. Knowledge is power.

Take care.

Baruch Hashem. Hoshia na.


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